Today I am joining Shell at http://thingsicantsay.com/ and pouring my heart out. Stop by and check out what other bloggers have to say.
This week a friend's 16 month old baby girl died suddenly. I was at a party when I got the message. My heart literally stopped and all I could think of is that I needed to see my own babies. I was enjoying a day to myself with old friends that I don't see nearly enough but I needed to get home to emerge myself into the everyday chaos. I cannot even imagine what they are going through. It hurts to even think about it.
Mack is at the crazy age that honestly is not my favorite. This week his craziness is definitely being viewed in a different perspective. He is here, he is healthy and his wildness just shows that his brain is working and that is growing into a little man. The messes he makes can easily be cleaned up. I am never going to regret hugging him or snuggling him instead of yelling at him for dumping out the entire bag of goldfish again. We have found that everyone is happier spending the entire afternoon at the playground.
I keep finding myself wishing away this stage - I wish he would listen, I wish he would not climb, I wish he would run slower, I wish he didn't wander into our bed to sleep every night. But I'm trying to change my perspective - he may not listen but he is hilarious and has the funniest facial expressions when he is doing something that he knows he is not supposed to do and he is actually a good climber - he climbed the entire tall curved ladder at the park yesterday - some 3 year olds can't even climb that!, he is fast and when he sprints I can barely catch him but he is strong and able and healthy and I kind of like the midnight snuggles and at least he just walks over now instead of someone having to walk over to his room to get him!
Perspectives change. I remind myself through the day to embrace this stage. to love his craziness. because I cannot even begin to imagine what it would be like if he wasn't here.
Please keep my friend and her family and their sweet angel Caroline in your prayers.