Saturday, April 10, 2010
i never thought I would be a stay-at-home mom type, i figured i would work hard, make lots of money and send my kids to daycare and be able to enjoy nice things as a result. things change and i am still adjusting to staying home but everyday I start to love it a little more. I get to see my little man growing up - I get to hear every new word that comes from his mouth. I get to chase him at the playground to stop him from running into the lake (why do they build playgrounds next to lakes filled w/ alligators?). sure, we don't have as much money and won't be taking any extravagent European vacations anytime soon and good old Sallie Mae is probably not going to be getting her money back in this decade but it doesn't matter. We live in Florida, beaches are 10 minutes away, Disney is a 1 hour drive - we will have mini staycations and make memories all the same. I may not be a domestic diva - i mean my husband does the laundry and we eat out a good portion of the time - but it is our normal. Our house may have piles of toys all over and cheerios under the couch but it is my comfortable. I would rather spend these first years, playing w/ chalk or blowing bubbles, than scrubbing the floors. And soon there will be another little dude (yes, it is a boy!!) and I want to be home to see everything that I missed when Dashy was in daycare. I don't want to get a piece of paper that tells me what he ate or how much he pooped - i want to be able to count his poops and i want to take him to baby yoga and mommy and me and all the things i missed out on because I went back to work too soon. one day I will have to work (or else Sallie will probably never get her money) but for the next few years I want my days to be filled w/ diapers and mess and toy cars and trips to the park. I want this to stay my normal.